My Monster and I

There's a monster inside me, yeah, I know he's there

I feed him my dreams at night and he brings me despair

I should try to stop him but the truth is I think I enjoy the fear

It makes me feel alive to scream myself awake when he's near

I tried once to fight it, this feeling of dread

But then I awoke and was sure I was dead

It kinda scares me when the world is happy and bright

Because I don't know how to live when there is no fright

I was just like you once upon a time

Frail and naive, having done no crime

Then one day I went sinister and dark

I got twisted inside and he made his evil mark

I'm much better now, it feels like I belong

In this world we've made that's full of wrong

The politicians are greedy and lead the pack

The church full of rapists and steal money by the stack

But you want to condemn me for being heartless and mean

When you don't realize you yourself live in the grey in between

You think you're above it all because you go to church on Sunday

But you'll be the first to walk past the homeless on Monday 

At least we can admit to our sins, my monster and me

But you do evil so blatant even a blind man could see

You'll spend millions to raise half that to feed some cause

But if the starving are on your corner out come your claws

You'll support some couple that made the news half a world away

But you want your neighbor to be kicked out and sent packing because he's gay

See, my monster is inside me and I can admit it

You hide your monster because you're a hypocrite

You cry for the starving children forced to work dirt cheap

But you'll buy the clothes they make to save a buck, you spineless sheep

You'll just follow the flock and support anything "politically correct"

Without caring once until it's your own life that's been wrecked

Me and my monster, we will sit back and enjoy this tableau 

While you and your "rightness" stoke the fires below

Oh, We are all going to hell, this much is clear

And when you're burning my monster and I will cheer